How can she look so different than Harper?
Light skin, light eyes, reddish-blondish hair…
and then there is Harper with her olive skin, dark eyes, and dark hair.
Day and night the two of them.
I can’t wait to see Sadie’s personality.
Will she be verbal, moody, and strong-willed like her sister?
Or will she grow into a little girl version of the baby she is…
smiley, sweet, happy go lucky, snuggly.
How I love my girls.
Even though they have given me one hell of a week.
How my heart aches for her.
To be so little and upset, but not to be able to adequately put it into words…
I hate that for her.
A little one who is teething and another who is learning who she is,
what she can and can’t do on her own…
well that has been a challenge.
I feel like I can’t hold or love on either one adequately.
I feel like they both deserve more.
When Sadie is crying and I can’t soothe her because I’m holding Harper,
or when Harper needs me to teach her, to play with her,
and I can’t because I’m holding Sadie…
this is when I feel guilty.
Because I’m juggling too many balls.
Mommy, Daddy, boo boo kisser, maid, nurse, chef, driver, kisser, hugger,
confidence builder, fear slayer…
and I feel some days like I’m not doing any of those things the right way.
Like there isn’t a single ball I can keep in the air.
But by the grace of God, they are becoming beautiful, smart, sweet little girls.
Full of light and love and YES sass at times.
But they are surviving regardless of how much I wish I could do more, be more.
And that’s how I know I must be doing okay.
Also these words from Jimmy really helped this week:
Know that I love you and am enormously proud
of you. It is incredibly difficult what you are doing – and you are
raising two smart and wonderful little girls. You’re the best. Really.
raising two smart and wonderful little girls. You’re the best. Really.
I love you, J
See why he is my favorite person in this world? Because he knows exactly what to say to make me feel better.
He also had some choice words for the lady at the store that saw me struggling as Sadie tried to jump out of my arms and Harper was crying.
The lady that instead of trying to help me, said “OH YOU LOOK LIKE YOU COULD USE SOME VITAMINS HONEY!!!”
Yes, he had some choice words indeed, and they made me feel better too, but let’s just say I won’t be repeating them here. Heeee!!
Sorry about my random post, bless your hearts if you got through it!!
Have a beautiful weekend, my friends.
xoxo
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